Dear my life today I'm so hurt too much. Who is him, why he made me cry a lot? Can't give commitment but want love relationship. If I'm 20 old years girl, maybe I will accept it for fun. But I'm 25 years now. He said that he love me too much and I did say that I love him too but why he always said about his x-gf. How can?He don't want we are separated but he like to say that his Mosina (his x-gf) will comeback soon. How can he like that? Actually what he want, just for fun. Just to make him happy and ignoring my feeling. I'm too much hurt today. He was begging to comeback but if you were me will you?
He ever said that he want wife like me, he said I'm his dream girl, he said no one will get you like me, he said I'm his soul mate, what a sweet crap and still many craps. What actually he want, who is he want?
Why he did like that? What a sin that I ever did to him, why he like to swing my heart?
This heart already damage. I don't know what kind of love again. I'm tired to feel this. To much... I only need one, I don't want taste a lot. I just need one..
White Horse - Taylor Swift
Say you're sorry, that face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known
I should have known
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around
Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
My mistake, I didn't know to be in love
You had to fight to the upper hand
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around
And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry
Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now
And its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now
Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late to catch me now
Hi.
ReplyDeleteI accidently get in your blog and I started to read it. Then I saw that I'm in the same way that you.
I'm loving my best friend but she don't love me like a love her. The idea of "you're my friend" makes me breakout.
We are friends have 2 and a half year, but only in the last months I felt like this.
2 weeks ago I told to my best friend that I love her, reciting a poem made by myself. She get out of words.
I was scared that she run away from me, or act different, and she did.
I was worried about it, so I wrote another poem to her with some words making a promise: "I will be at your side, have no doubt about it".
She told me that a year ago, she was feeling in the same way to me, but she killed this feeling because I was in love with another girl. When I knew that, I get broke, because I break her heart and didn't even now.
Now I don't know if is better I kill this feeling or just live it.
About what you're felling right now, first, don't make any hard decisions in the times you're sad, I already did it and I regret for it.
Do he loves you? I think you have the answer for this, and obviously he don't want to hurt you or let you down, but is hard to do it with you feeling this.
Amilton.
Hi Amilton,
ReplyDeleteThank for visit my blog.
Yes its hard, its become more hard when he don't want to leave. Still love each other without commitment. I don't know what kind of relationship is? He want still like this, share pain, share problem, share happiness or sometime share love. I'm bored and tired.
Only can just let it flow. Because still I can't leave him, I think he feels same too. So enjoy it, although my heart not enjoy it. What can I do, can't see him sad. I will try to kill my feeling little by a little.