Really am I a good girl?

There is some good guys told me that I'm a good girl but why they can't have me? The man number 1 who was made me felt enough for search anymore but he diagnosis brain tumor stage 3 and now I don't know where is him. He choose to run from me then tell everything till no possibility anymore.The man number 2 who was be my best friend, now maybe I only can say that he is a good friend, because can't share anything like before. He always say you are a good girl and I'm sure he love me, but he don't...

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Why I still missing you?

Dear the owner of sweet smile,I can't feel him anymore but why I still missing him? I don't know how to find him anymore. If he have to go then just go, don't thinking about me. Why so hard to forget him, each time I remember him, then I see his smile. Is he still struggling to life and thinking about me too. If he will be recover then recover soon, here I can't find you, where are you. I lost your contact, I don't what happen on you now. Why you leave me without giving me a number that I can contact....

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You Belong With Me

When I listen this song then I remember him. Ehm..I like this song so sweet happy ending story ;).I know its a little late post this now, but this song express my hope when I falling in love with my best friend. Really feel like me, not pretty, not sexy but ahh... I can't be like as Taylor swift who change into beautiful lady in the party. hhhhHere is me, I love myself as myself now.Ok walk to remember of "You Belong To Me" By Tailor Swift.Taylor Swift: You Belong With Me LyricsSongwriters: Elisabeth...

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For the Rest of My Life

Maher Zain: For The Rest Of My Life LyricsI praise Allah for sending me you my loveYou found me home and sail with meAnd I`m here with youNow let me let you knowYou`ve opened my heartI was always thinking that love was wrongBut everything was changed when you came alongOOOOOAnd theres a couple words I want to sayChorus:For the rest of my lifeI`ll be with youI`ll stay by your side honest and trueTill the end of my timeI`ll be loving you.loving youFor the rest of my lifeThru days and nightI`ll thank...

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Take it easy!

I don't know what the meaning of love anymore today. I should enjoy and happy because of it but its make me depress. Sometime happy but sometime sad, jealous, fighting, controlling. When I still hope and wish he will get recover (the one but seem its almost impossible), then suddenly falling in love with my best friend, then he said only want to be friend, then suddenly a man come to my life. At first he made me happy but then he made me crying a lot and then now he is make complicated.Its love...

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My feeling like "White Horse" Lyric

Dear my life today I'm so hurt too much. Who is him, why he made me cry a lot? Can't give commitment but want love relationship. If I'm 20 old years girl, maybe I will accept it for fun. But I'm 25 years now. He said that he love me too much and I did say that I love him too but why he always said about his x-gf. How can? He don't want we are separated but he like to say that his Mosina (his x-gf) will comeback soon. How can he like that? Actually what he want, just for fun. Just to make him happy...

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I was dreaming about engagement last night

Last night in my sleep, I was dreaming about my engagement with someone who come to my life now. We haven't engaged now, but on my dream its look so real and I want more detail. Actually I forgot some part of my dream but I remember this part, we go to jewelry shop to buy the rings. I don't choose the rings but I was asking to the jewelry shop keeper to find me engagement ring that simple and not too much expensive. If I'm not wrong he (my fiance) is beside me, and the shop keeper give me the rings....

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I have to choose

I was crying so hard last night, because someone make me can share what I feels and what I keep on my heart. About someone in past that I really want but he get brain tumor stage 3. I don't know why I can shared to this person, the way he ask make me can answer all the things that he asked. I don't know I have to thank to him or not, but because I shared my burden then he said he love me. Oh... what I have to do? Even my best friend that I like, can't make me like this.Should I make a commitment...

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I don't want to wait a whole my life

I did say that I like my best friend, I still like him but he don't have a courage to have serious commitment. For me say "I love you" is not enough. I want something for sure, i don't want he leave me when I did waiting for long time. It's hard for me it's better get someone for sure than waiting someone who is not sure. I'm afraid, when I'm loyal with him,only love him but he only want to be my friend. Maybe someday he find a girl that he really want and then he leave me. I can wait him but...

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