Once again I dreamed that you are engaged me

Baby.. I told you that I was dream that you purpose me to engaged again. It's different story with my first dream. In my dream you asked me many time, "do you want we are engaged?". And in my dream I was answer,"what?". I don't know how many time you did ask me, but as I remember its many time you asked with same question and my answer always, "what?". But finally in last question, I said yes.

It was only dream, not happen in real. But why I dream to be engaged with you twice? I didn't thinking that you will engaged me and I didn't thinking that you will really marry me. Because what I can to do with you now only enjoy with this relationship.

Baby... Do you know, sometime I am thinking that you are my destiny. I don't know it's only my mind or you thinking also. Because I got some sign, I never fight with other boy like I fight with you. When I fight with you always ending with loving not continue to angry for long time. Other sign that you said you very often dreaming with me. I dreamed engaged with you twice. Want to leave but hard to leave. I can feel your feeling. I can feel when you need me. When we are far away and we are talking with chat, I can feel that you try to kiss me. And other sign.

Ehm... I don't know if my feeling is right or wrong. But baby... Many boys already come to my life, they were test me but they can't touch me. You know... That many boys are handsome and you just ordinary. Baby.. Do you know, I still can't forget one of them. Still hope that he will recover and comeback to me. I feel he is the one that I am looking for. Maybe I'm blind, I love you and you are who always worrying me, you are who always bother by calling me many times when you need me, you are who always crazy to see me everyday, you are who always there and other. See... really I'm blind, I still hope someone that maybe will never comeback.

Baby.. are you my destiny or other test like that other boys?

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Maybe it like a wound which you pour a juice of lemon on it

I don't know why the way of my life like this?

I easy to love but hard to give my heart.

After him, I asked to Allah there is no other man will come to my life and make me crazy in love then leave me alone.

Better I wait for the right one to give my truely love.

I'm afraid with this one will leave me also.

Now... I fall in love with a good one (he is the after him), each time he told me maybe we can't be together because maybe my family not agree.

Or you said that you want your parent find a girl for you.

That time you hurt my heart, but I keep it and smiling to you then say, Insha Allah you will find a good girl better than me soon.

You hurt me again after that by telling me that you don't want a girl better than me, you want a copy paste like me.

I know you still afraid to give promise for me but why you have to put if your parent will find a girl for you then its mean you will leave me after find her. Its mean, for you I just a spare time for flirting a girl.

Today you asked me to say salam to my parent, I said Insha Allah but they will not trust me, and I said in my heart actually I still not dare to introduce you to my family. Because you also still not sure.

Sometime you talk about other girl and I try to listen everything. I will try to find a solution if you did a mistake with them while my hurt in pain. I want to tell everything, all of my feeling, how much I feel hurt but my mouth always shut when I heard your voice.

How to image this feeling maybe it like a wound which you pour a juice of lemon on it.

And you will so angry when I talk other boys which I say that they are my friend. You said why I have to jealous who am I? Then I feel guilty because told about him with you.

Baby.. actually I don't like to swing my heart, but why I always submit infront of you.

This heart already in damage, its hard to cure it.

I want to take easy with you, but you will angry if you know that I'm taking easy relationship with you.

Its ok if I'm a spare time for him because I love him but please Allah dont let me to love him more. And don't make me down if he leaved me.

Save me from mourning like I never felt it if I got that, I dont want sobbing for something that I didn't get.

Sometime I'm happy with this love but like a mirror which show me a sadness reflection will come to my life in future but I still like to see this mirror.

What this?

Some time sure but sometime not sure.

Heart swinger..but when I tell to him don't swing my heart then he will say, I don't lie, I love you too much.

Oooh.... i'm not thirsty with his love words but like I stuck in his love and missing his love everyday.

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I don't want to give up.

Allah.... I want to share. Why you give me test like this?

Its hard for me, I want to finish it.

I believe when u gave a test for me then its mean i can to do it.

But why this test make me want to give up?

I used to not like this.

I want to cry and screaming, but I know it wont help me.

I want to finish it.

I'm tired with it.

I'm crazy with it.

What I have to do?

Maybe I did waste my time.

But u know I'm not good on this, but why you give me this one?

I need you helpppppppppppppp.

You know I can do this, but how????

Help me to make this test easy for me Allah.

I want to do this by myself.

I feel bad.

I feel I make regret my family with me.

Help me....really need you help.

What I have to do?

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TYPE OF MAN THAT WILL NOT MAKE YOU HAPPY

Was out with a guy, but you're still not convinced to continue the relationship into a more serious? Well, before making a choice, the following Cosmo lay out some of the character of men who were not going to make you happy!


Men Who Hate his work
If he does not like his job - where he spent most of his time - meaning he has a mindset that might disrupt a relationship. Remember darling, it's important to love what you do! But if the he did not like it, why still do it? Why he did not want to strive forward in his career, and do our best to change his attitude? It could be he will also hate you, when he began to feel a lot of problems when dealing with you. Yes, like a job!


The Men Obsessed with The Mother
He always hung, told them everything, even he felt could not live if separated from the mother. Or on the contrary, he hated his mother, constantly complain about it, and expect you to be a good version of the mother. Yep, in other words, there is not enough space to have a relationship with a man who was always overshadowed by the mother.


Men Who Want to Always Admired
Okay, you've complimented her clever, handsome, and interesting. But, he still wants to hear it from someone else! In fact he tried very hard to get this. You do this by constantly tease other women, through email, while partying, shopping, and everywhere. Although he was not having an affair, but this guy will never get enough of you.


Friends of Men Who Have Secrets
He always looks busy sending emails, messages, or go just to meet someone who he considered "friends". But unfortunately, you never asked to go along and get together with friends this secret. Well, it does not mean you are too close to the middle suspected another woman, honey! But a man who has an attitude like this, obviously never prepared to share stories with other people including you. Certainly, it is clear that the closed stance will not run well in a relationship, right?


Men Who Always Partying
On weekends, you certainly want to have time to just two with your partner. But because he loves to party, your invitation so often neglected. Hmmm .. man with a character like this actually has a fear of missing something, like get together and have fun with friends, whereas only one who turned out to be missing from it is the quality time with you. (Lidya Irawat /

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