These days people around me start to asks me why I'm still single while a girl in my age already has kid? Ehm... hard to answer. Usually I just answer that I didn't find my destiny my Mr.Right. Actually I already want to have someone to life together, to share, to care and enjoying life sad and happy together. I'm single not because I'm not trying my Mr. but I'm trying to find him too. Sometime I feel and have question to my self why people seem so easy to found their other half but me feels so hard.
Many time fails and be broken heart, it was not something joyful, it was hurt too. I was trying many times, I though it was gonna work when I'm trying to date a divorced man because I think he had experience before but it seem he ignore me. And my best friend told me after too much hurt usually you will find your other half soon. But again broken heart and build trust make relationship and broken heart again and back build relationship. Who was wrong? I don't know, but I felt I can't trust them anymore when I felt they become ignore me when their mouth said that they are taking serious relationship with me. Who will believe that they become ignore me when I was like the flower just blossom, need more love and attention but they treat me nothing. I don't want to judge them now, I just a little bit share maybe you are have same feeling with me now.
I just read about the reason why I'm single but no one of them describe my situation now. The mention the reason to be single into 6 points. They are:
1. High standard
2. Negatif
3. Not listening
4. Environment when I live
5. Trap in past memmories
6. I don't want a relationship
Well... see no one of those point describe me. About high standard, ehm... I do have standard but I think it is normal. The best describe about why I'm single now because I don't want to have relationship with someone which I don't like and I didn't find my Mr.. So it is mean some men also asked me but I refuse because I feel I don't like their appearance, spirit, principal, etc. And the bored deal when I like someone almost too much but they don't like me as much as me. Ya... just be patient and keep trying to find him. I'm sure he is also trying and my friend told me don't lower my standard because I'm deserve better.
Trust and rely everything in God, we are human we only can try and effort the decision and result let God decide and manage it.
