I forgive to left me in pain but don't come back to left other pain

It is almost 1 month later I wrote for this blog. It was quite long, actually I had many stories to share but I wasn't have passion to write. But today there is a story that I want to share.
It is not a happy story but something that I don't like. Someone is back to contact me. Someone who left pain for me. He decided to marry other girl without asking my permission while he still called me baby, ya... we were in relationship. About 1 months ago he married and he just told me that news about 2 months ago. Feel like I was been played after 8 months relationship.
Honestly I'm not really like him like I like my best friend but I can't lie that I had feeling for him. But who is he? Why he so dare to contact me for asking help to make his wife happy? It is not really same with that reason but almost similar. Ya.. I'm not the perfect one but I was there for him when he need me. He like to called me stupid, idiot and nonsense then he said sorry it was kidding and I realize now that he was right because how stupid and idiot I'm that want to spent my times for me. How stupid, idiot and nonsense I'm that I spent more time for him than for study. How stupid, idiot and nonsense I'm always forgive him when he did mistake. How stupid, idiot and nonsense I'm always give him best suggestion and best opinion when he was in trouble. I was always care him even he only thinking about his self. I even lack of rest just for him. So stupid because the stupid feeling too...
I know 8 months is short if I compare to years relationship. But it was pain and hurt when he told me that he will marry after 1 month later and I lied that I was happy to hear that. I don't know it is same for other people or not, I was not hurt too much when he left and when I was remember the memories but it is hurt more when he comeback to contact me while he only want to left other pain. I should trust my vision at first before my feeling was growing but I don't know it was hard to control my feeling. My vision was told me that he is same with my first xbf. Who did left me for other girl but begging for sorry after he married for some months and told that he can't forget me. Now... feel like already fall and believe that standing beside the hill is not save. Ya.. I must step forward and don't ever looking backward, I'm sure someone who left me now finally will left so it is better to left me now than left me when we were married. Like my friend who told me that he is not quite good for me because they don't know my value. Hahaha... I think he was only cheers me on that time.
I forgive them all but I don't let them comeback just to left other pain so I don't want answer anything if they contact me or looking for me again. Hope I get better man than them. Thanks you if you read this. Don't left your sun just for an ordinary moon. Don't hurt a girl because you don't know that they are praying better than you because who was in hurt is more blessing. Do you believe in God? I do believe in God. God never sleep, God know what the best for us.

Keep fighting this fucking life...hahaha...