I forgive to left me in pain but don't come back to left other pain

It is almost 1 month later I wrote for this blog. It was quite long, actually I had many stories to share but I wasn't have passion to write. But today there is a story that I want to share.
It is not a happy story but something that I don't like. Someone is back to contact me. Someone who left pain for me. He decided to marry other girl without asking my permission while he still called me baby, ya... we were in relationship. About 1 months ago he married and he just told me that news about 2 months ago. Feel like I was been played after 8 months relationship.
Honestly I'm not really like him like I like my best friend but I can't lie that I had feeling for him. But who is he? Why he so dare to contact me for asking help to make his wife happy? It is not really same with that reason but almost similar. Ya.. I'm not the perfect one but I was there for him when he need me. He like to called me stupid, idiot and nonsense then he said sorry it was kidding and I realize now that he was right because how stupid and idiot I'm that want to spent my times for me. How stupid, idiot and nonsense I'm that I spent more time for him than for study. How stupid, idiot and nonsense I'm always forgive him when he did mistake. How stupid, idiot and nonsense I'm always give him best suggestion and best opinion when he was in trouble. I was always care him even he only thinking about his self. I even lack of rest just for him. So stupid because the stupid feeling too...
I know 8 months is short if I compare to years relationship. But it was pain and hurt when he told me that he will marry after 1 month later and I lied that I was happy to hear that. I don't know it is same for other people or not, I was not hurt too much when he left and when I was remember the memories but it is hurt more when he comeback to contact me while he only want to left other pain. I should trust my vision at first before my feeling was growing but I don't know it was hard to control my feeling. My vision was told me that he is same with my first xbf. Who did left me for other girl but begging for sorry after he married for some months and told that he can't forget me. Now... feel like already fall and believe that standing beside the hill is not save. Ya.. I must step forward and don't ever looking backward, I'm sure someone who left me now finally will left so it is better to left me now than left me when we were married. Like my friend who told me that he is not quite good for me because they don't know my value. Hahaha... I think he was only cheers me on that time.
I forgive them all but I don't let them comeback just to left other pain so I don't want answer anything if they contact me or looking for me again. Hope I get better man than them. Thanks you if you read this. Don't left your sun just for an ordinary moon. Don't hurt a girl because you don't know that they are praying better than you because who was in hurt is more blessing. Do you believe in God? I do believe in God. God never sleep, God know what the best for us.

Keep fighting this fucking life...hahaha...  

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Kissing style

It turned out that every man has their own style of kissing, for a woman who just had to kiss with her husband only may not know the sense of kissing style of other men. But if you have husband who likes to do and try new things you might get all sense of kissing style. The women divide the forces of man as a warm kiss, passionate kisses and gentle kiss. As to whether the forces that kiss. While reading this article think that where the style of kissing your partner, you are guaranteed to be eager to kiss her right away. (^ ^)

A warm kiss
When he kissed her, it's "in" and full of strength. His kiss was meaningful and can make your world was spinning. He likes to be teased and can be very passionate. He does not mind showing his attention elsewhere. He is also proud of his kissing techniques.

Men of this type has a great passion and warmth that can he channeled through a kiss. When the kiss, his hand would touch your hair to create a pleasing combination. Variety is the spice of life. Do not be surprised if he's happy to kiss you with a variety of styles and like to try and introduce a new style kiss on her partner.

A passionate kiss
His kissing techniques are unpredictable style. Just as he pleased. He not only likes to experiment, but also happy to surprise his partner with the style of kissing. He really enjoyed the spontaneity and you can smell it anywhere, including in public places, which of course will make you excited to receive it.

How great kissing style? The answer, depending on the passion that he felt at that time. This guy is a wild type and can not be restricted. When kissing, he was happy to put his hand on the go. It could even squeeze a bit hit or a specific part of your body. He could probably holds the record for longest kisser because she does love to kiss.

A gentle kiss
He loves to kiss you with soft, sweet, and heartfelt. Although it was less passionate, kiss can make you feel special. As if her kisses just for you. He can create a romantic atmosphere with a slow kiss, holding your face or hands.

For him, a kiss is not a good physical game, but rather a personal thing that should be shared. He is very sensitive to the needs of their partner, although he considers his time is very valuable. When the kiss, he would listen to his conscience and think about how valuable partner for him. This man is caring and always concerned with feelings of their partner.

As a girl we love all that kind of kiss, sometime we want passionate kiss, sometime we want warm kiss and sometime a gentle kiss. So which one is romantic kiss? All kind of kiss are romantic if you are doing with your partner and you know where is the good moment to do it. I want to leak it, a hot woman know what she want, she will tell to her partner which style she want. Hahaha, but every woman will melt with any kind of kissing style when she really love her partner, even when she was angry sometime kissing can directly swept the fire of anger become the fire of passionate. Yea...many time when she angry directly kiss can make her directly melt and after that hugs her. Mwah..mwah...hahahahahaha

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The meaning of lipstick colors in his eyes

The variety of lipstick colors like red, pink, fuchsia, cream, green, blue, purple, yellow, and until, it has its own meaning in the eyes of men are to women of various colors of lipstick is the increasing number of options that can be used to tint the lips to look more beautiful. In his eyes, lipstick colors actually reflect your personality and confidence of the wearer. By Matt Bean, Men's Health magazine editor, the men have their own perceptions about the choice of lipstick color worn a woman.
Is the perception of a man about a lipstick color?

1. Classic red
Classic color red is considered very accentuate their confidence high. Bright red lipstick color sends the message "Look at me", and a color that is assumed to be the desire to be noticed. According to Matt, if you want to steal the attention of a man, asleep just bright red lipstick neatly so that the color and shape of the lips look more sexy. (Never mind the men, for women were bright red color will invite attention. But it is true that not all women dared to wear bright red color and some did not like the bright red color on the lips stick. Example of an artist who is often seen wearing bright red lipstick, namely: Gwen Stephani)

2. Hot pink
Pink is often likened to the color of love, but in terms of color, pink lipstick is not anything related to love. Because according to Matt, the color pink symbolizes a more punk style and adventurous, both in terms of love and activity. (So ​​for the women carefully put on the color pink, because it is considered as an adventurer in love. Huhuhu. Though pink lipstick color for me as a woman shows tenderness and pink  lipstick color is color that suits with my lips. Pink lipstick color also easy be matching with all dress colors. [what pink I like is not much pink and not much red, like in the middle between both]).

3. Dark purple
Almost like a dark purple red in the wine. This color symbolizes the brave personality and not afraid of risk. "This is a color that shows a personality that likes to be a challenge in a positive," said Matt. But he added, women who love the dark color does not necessarily mean you have a dark side and a negative personality. In most women, the use of very dark colors attract the attention of men. (The color purple lipstick is not an option for me because purple lipstick have image of bruise for me besides that purple lipstick color is hard to matching and combined with the dress).

4. Cream
Color brown or beige color called neutral because it has the same color as the color of human skin. According to the men, women who use this color will look very cool and pale as a corpse. "Especially if combined with a creamy color gloss because you will look like shiny donuts," said Matt. (If I see a lot of beige/Beige lipstick color worn by middle-aged women (mothers) in a Korean drama. For me the color beige lipstick may seem cold and sad).

5. Orange
When looking at the color of orange lipstick, men will think that you have a personality that is unique and very brave to try something different. "Behind the lipstick, as if the firm saved personalities but on the other hand has a very pleasant and very confident," he explained. (Orange is a color that I like but not the color of my choice, because the orange color does not match with my color skin. For me the orange color are symbolizes joy and sweet).

That's what lipstick colors in his eyes. For women choosing lipstick color matching based on skin color and because of the reason like with these colors too, but for the men was a lipstick color has its own assessment. A good lipstick can also protect your lips especially those that contain moisturizers.

credit to : female.kompas.com

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